Let's see what happened since my last post. Hmmm, I turned a year older... getting me one year closer to that 40 landmark (I want to be at my goal weight by 40... giving me a 100 lb weight loss over 10 years). I started a handful of new knitting projects and may have even bought some yarn. Okay, I bought a lot of yarn. I think I like buying yarn better than knitting.
It's about Optimism. Potential. Creativity. There's something very positive about new yarn. I see so much that I can do with that colorful piece of string. It never ceases to amaze me.
I'm trying to stay focused on positives in my life, and that's always been a struggle with me. My low self esteem rears it's ugly head at times that surprise me and sort of throws me for a loop. This is one of those weeks. The self doubt starts to creep back into my psychie and I don't want it there.
I've made some fabulous friends thru my knitting group and we celebrated the April birthdays, so I didn't have my usual pity party for myself on my birthday this year. Matt made a special day for me as well, and we had a lovely dinner with friends in celebration. So it fell into one of the best birthdays I've celebrated. Thoughtful friends, gifts and energy. It's so very very much appreciated.
So maybe my bad mood this week is just the let down of a great week last week? Some weird things happened this week and it might have triggered the bad mood.
So I'm not tracking my food. I had planned on taking some time off from tracking for the week of my birthday anyway, but I haven't gotten back on track again. The workouts have become very sporatic... and when I did my Tuesday upper body workout with Yourself!Fitness it was grueling! (I may have mentioned this once or twice in the past: I hate %$^#^%$ lunges!!!!!)
So a refocus is in order. My doctor's office didn't call with my cholestrol numbers, and quite frankly, that's good. I could call to find out, but I'm in range, or they would've called. I do need to stay focused. My cholesterol is something I'm going to have to monitor my entire life, and just because I'm within a healthy range, doesn't mean I can abruptly stop paying attention to what and how much I'm eating.
This weekend Matt has a 2 day race. Saturday is the road race, then on Sunday he'll have a mountain time trial in the morning, then a criterium in the afternoon. He actually has a pretty decent chance of a high finish on the time trial. Here's a profile of the course (click to for a larger view):
Hmmm, it's called "Pain Mountain Time Trial". Glad I'm not doing it!!!I might try to go on Sunday. It's a long day, but it's always fun to watch him race.
