The Fat Chick

I must admit I'm really struggling with my physical appearance right now. I don't think this is a bad thing, as I am hoping that this is going to motivate me to work harder and eat smarter.

I'm making efforts to put more emphasis on my appearance by getting some better fitting clothes (rule one in weight loss: don't wear ill fitting clothes. You'll just look frumpy) wearing make up and just generally paying more attention to how I look.

The problem is that I still feel like the fat chick. I know that it's probably just my own low self esteem, but having a husband that is in top physical condition makes me very aware of how out of shape I look. While I've been celebrating my weight loss, I do forget that I'm far from my goal.

I find it odd that I am more self concious of my weight now that I've lost 60 lbs than I did when I was obese. Maybe because I'm trying now and I wasn't then? Is that why I don't usually put an effort into my physical appearance? If I try and fail, then I'm a failure, but if I don't try then I can always use the excuse "well, I didn't try".

Well, you can't be a failure without trying... and the only way to sucess is to try... so off I go to workout!

And yes, Marilyn: the only way to get to 30 lbs is to start with the first 5 lbs. And I can't lose those 5 until I lose the first pound!